Lonely :(

'Lonely......I Mr. Lonely ......there is nobody ......i'm on my own.' Sometimes i feel lonely. Why?? I don't know. Inspite of having people around , I am alone. Are we all not , somewhere at some point we all feel lonely. I feel coz thats what i do at home sit in my room with the door closed & surf net, FB, watch movies, chat with friends, do work/assignments,etc. but all in the closed room which is lonely but we have each other, so it make me feel safe but still somewhere i want someone (may be god, fairy,etc) with whom i can talk & share my problems & can be advised for the same. Whom i can talk about anything & everything. (i know it's like a fairy tale story which does not happen in real.) But i wish we could actually live the fairy tale stories which we hear with little problems & a lot of happiness. We used to read the Hansel & gratel stories & wished that there was an actual house made of chocolates , biscuits, ice-creams, candies,etc. but without the witch. But you don't always get what ever you want coz in recent times there are many witches/bad people in one house despite the house being like a fairy tale one. Loneliness makes me cry for things i wished to do but could'nt or make me think what should i have done or if i chose the other option then what would have happened?? But when you are alone i.e. being with yourself you understand yourself better but in my case i dont know whther i know myself better than some people do or may be the quizzes i take on FB does (lol) or may be the counsellor does after talking to me. I don't think i know myself better but i try to ponder over myself to know me better may be through these quizzes or by talking to a counsellor that i dont even at home but i do talk with some close friends. I am comfortable talking to them, even the counsellor ( but not everything yet) & now even while writing the blog but why do we not feel comfortable while talking at home about whats going on inside us?????? i can't understand ????? So that's one reason which makes me sit in my room shut from everyone , LONELY. So, that's why i am most of the time quite (not much talkative) & have shut myself from the surroundings & people about whatever is going in my mind. I feel that sometimes even my friends don't want to talk to me or may be busy as they say as they don't pick my call up (atleast can reply by msg if u r busy so i won't call again instead of giving reasons 4 not picking up) or suddenely go offline after chatting for sometime (or may be the connection problem). May be my talks are boring or something as they dont have a choice but to listen (atleast say that so i wont talk again about anything like that.) I feel so UNWANTED sometimes n also USELESS as people wanna avoid me (may be its all in my head & its not what i think but what do i do if i feel so.) I wish there could be some magic like we see in shows & help us over come what ever barrier or whatever it is which cannot be explained (may be).