Wait & Patience !!!!!!!!!!

The word ' WAIT & PATIENCE ' are just mere words but are big for people who have to keep PATIENCE & have to WAIT for long to get what they want but a small word for those who immediately get things i.e. things they get easily without struggling or just asking & u get them. But I have been WAITING & keeping PATIENCE for a job but still am struggling to get a good one. I am just giving interviews & don't know how many i have given ( may be 20 or something). Well what to do , i don't know getting irritated but then i am helping my sister in the meanwhile but still want a good decent job. Don't know how many more interviews are lined up & how much more i will have to WAIT & have to keep PATIENCE. I am happy for my friends who got jobs but still I am waiting to get one myself. :( :(( :-< Hope i get one soon.

Sad :(

I am very very sad n upset coz i will have 2 shift which i don't want to. Why are people telling to grow up & not be sad......why can't i be sad or upset, when i have staying there since my birth till now. Obviously i will be attached to my house , so will be sad for leaving it. People are saying that you have to move on in life but i don't want to leave from here. It hurting which makes me remind that i won't be able to come here or see my house again & makes me cry. Now how do i stop myself from being sad or upset. I have not told anyone at home coz i don't want them 2 be tensed or upset. I don't know what to do. i have taken some pics of my house yesterday i.e. 11th may 2010 Tuesday (just to remember). I wish there could be some kind of magic which would let us stay here forever & no further problems of leaving. :( :(( :( :(( Plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz i don't wanna go.

What do i do??????

I dont know what to do????????? How do i tell people my problems coz i know what will they say. They will not try to understand what am i going through (i doubt anyone will). Coz again they will tell me what they think but not try to understand what i feel or think. I don't wanna shift from my house. I am more sad & upset coz of this than not getting a job. I cry every time i think of leaving i.e. all day & night but alone as i dont want anyone to see that i am crying & give them tension. My cousin just called up seeing my sad status in FB & asked me what happened but i did not tell coz i know she will say the same thing as she herself has shifted so obviously she will say that you have to move on (i know that but may be don't want 2 do anything as i am so attached to my house :( :(( ) . I don't know what to do. I just hope that some how we dont have to go but some where i am thinking that we will have to go :( :(( whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???????????? I am not liking this. I am not liking anything around me even GOD & as usual blaming him for all this tension. But people say that ' whatever happens , happens for good ' but i dont see how leaving house is good (may be atleast for me as i have stayed here for long) but then i dont know what to think & say. Only a MIRACLE can help (but i dont know anything will happen). :( :((

Why is this happening to me only ?????????

' Why is this happening to me only???? ' is said when we have problems or crisis, etc. And when we have problems it feels like YOU are the only one with whom this is happening or ONLY YOU are the one with whom injustice is being done either by people or GOD. And then we blame them & mostly GOD & say that its coz of u this is happening to me. ' What is UR problem with me or may be U don't like me????????? Whats the matter ????????? What wrong have I done??????? ' are the questions we ask GOD. But no reply. Why ?????? & How do we get his reply?????????? Now we all blame him for our miseries. I do that a lot. Now I don't want to shift or go away to live anywhere else & i am blaming GOD for doing this. I am crying when I am alone but i told my some friends among whom some said why do u cry & said that I have changed places so many times & said why are u doing so much NATAK & u are just leaving ur place & again the same after marriage a girl has to leave & girls are always emotional. Now , not everyone are same so I am very emotional & i get emotionally attached to things or people who are close to me & also i get hurt when they get hurt or if they say something which i did not expect them to say. Now i cant help if i am so attached to my house that i do not want to live elsewhere. Come on, i have lived since my birth till now i.e. 25 yrs & going to turn 26. And i don't want 2 show my family that i am sad coz they will be sad. So, when dad asked me during dinner that what happened to me i said that my legs were paining. But i think they know i am sad coz i had told them before that i will not go from here. It is difficult for me to even think about living elsewhere. I know i should not be so attached but i can help it. I am an emotional fool but i am trying to be strong. But I still don't want 2 go anywhere else & i am also angry on GOD for doing this to me & i blame him for it. May be i am wrong or very sentimental but cant help it. :( :((

Feeling of Newness !!!!!!!!!!!

I am glad to do the personality development course which was from 26 april - 2nd may 2010 i.e. for a week. I learnt so many things from Colonel Ravindra Joshi as he parted with his knowledge& gave us support & patiently listened to our problems & then giving us solutions. It was a great experience. I am practicing the exercises to gain my confidence (most importantly), open up & speak without being hesitant,stage & public fear i.e. cannot speak in font of public , think positively, etc. I really want to overcome these problems which will help me to become a new person overall. First will have to transform from inside i.e. the self then only outside changes will take place, do deliberate self talk & think positively , etc. Will have to help myself to make me a new person & confident person. I have also got new friends from the classes who have also helped me. Thank you Sir & friends for your help & support. I hope we all can do & become & achieve what we want to in life & spread happiness all over & be happy.