Lonely :(

'Lonely......I Mr. Lonely ......there is nobody ......i'm on my own.' Sometimes i feel lonely. Why?? I don't know. Inspite of having people around , I am alone. Are we all not , somewhere at some point we all feel lonely. I feel coz thats what i do at home sit in my room with the door closed & surf net, FB, watch movies, chat with friends, do work/assignments,etc. but all in the closed room which is lonely but we have each other, so it make me feel safe but still somewhere i want someone (may be god, fairy,etc) with whom i can talk & share my problems & can be advised for the same. Whom i can talk about anything & everything. (i know it's like a fairy tale story which does not happen in real.) But i wish we could actually live the fairy tale stories which we hear with little problems & a lot of happiness. We used to read the Hansel & gratel stories & wished that there was an actual house made of chocolates , biscuits, ice-creams, candies,etc. but without the witch. But you don't always get what ever you want coz in recent times there are many witches/bad people in one house despite the house being like a fairy tale one. Loneliness makes me cry for things i wished to do but could'nt or make me think what should i have done or if i chose the other option then what would have happened?? But when you are alone i.e. being with yourself you understand yourself better but in my case i dont know whther i know myself better than some people do or may be the quizzes i take on FB does (lol) or may be the counsellor does after talking to me. I don't think i know myself better but i try to ponder over myself to know me better may be through these quizzes or by talking to a counsellor that i dont even at home but i do talk with some close friends. I am comfortable talking to them, even the counsellor ( but not everything yet) & now even while writing the blog but why do we not feel comfortable while talking at home about whats going on inside us?????? i can't understand ????? So that's one reason which makes me sit in my room shut from everyone , LONELY. So, that's why i am most of the time quite (not much talkative) & have shut myself from the surroundings & people about whatever is going in my mind. I feel that sometimes even my friends don't want to talk to me or may be busy as they say as they don't pick my call up (atleast can reply by msg if u r busy so i won't call again instead of giving reasons 4 not picking up) or suddenely go offline after chatting for sometime (or may be the connection problem). May be my talks are boring or something as they dont have a choice but to listen (atleast say that so i wont talk again about anything like that.) I feel so UNWANTED sometimes n also USELESS as people wanna avoid me (may be its all in my head & its not what i think but what do i do if i feel so.) I wish there could be some magic like we see in shows & help us over come what ever barrier or whatever it is which cannot be explained (may be).

Confused ?????????????

'U R SO CONFUSED' / "WHY R U SO CONFUSED?" This is what people tell me. I am always confused but sometimes i feel people themselves are confused & they make you more confused. Sometimes they say something & then they say something. In an example of a career they say remain focus on one but then they only say that the other career option is much better or has a good scope, now won't the mind get confused & then when you choose some other career , there are so many options in the career you choose. There are so many sub parts that you dont know what to choose. Then why won't the mind be confused. If you want us not to be confused then give us limited option (which i doubt will be possible) or just guide us & let the decision be OURS instead of listening to others & telling us what to do & STOP saying everytime why r u so CONFUSED. Even if the person is not you will try & make him. You need to understand the person & clear the confusion. MAy be the person is thinking something else or something is going on in his/her head so that does not mean the person is confused. It's just you don't understand the person however close you are to him/her (how much ever you claim that you understand but you don't).

Conditioned system !!!!!!!!!!

You keep quite & the world will take advantage of you. Well, it must be true, but question is,' IS it actually/really true??' Well, if you dont talk much, does it mean that you are scared , fearful, etc?????? Can't you be quite & still be recognized, let people not take advantage of you or let yourslef not get exploited ?????I went for counselling to my college where , sir told me the answer to this question. He said that people who say such things or tag you with names have conditioned themselves to these things that they have seen or have lived their life in these conditions. They have not seen beyond this. They know that people whom talk will always win but they have not seen where by staying quite also people win as their work speaks for them. They do not realise that by doing /saying so what the person who is been said to is going through. They don't know what physical/mental problems is going within him/her when he/she hears such thing. Not only their morale goes down but also self confidence goes for a toss. People who wants the person to be bold & confident is losing them coz people don't realise that even if they are saying this to help , it's not helping the peroson but pushing him/her away from it.Every person is UNIQUE within himself/herself & people should try & let them be as they are & try to understand them instead of putting their thinking into the person , lets the person think what he/she is capable of or what they can do. Stop judging people & telling them what you feel is right or wrong, let him/her decide this for themselves. Be a GUIDE & not a DICTATOR.

Art of living !!!!!!!!!

Felt nice, energised, light ,etc. in the 1st day in art of living class. The class is of 3 days i.e. fri, sat n sun. Felling really nice, got my body numb wid a current in the sudarshan kriya - d breathing exercise, felt the body getting heavy with the breathing exercise while the chant 'SOHAM' was being played in the background. Hope it teaches me not to stress much. Did the 3 stages of prayanam with the ujjain exercise (again a breathing exercise). Learnt the 4 essential things for the body i.e. food, sleep, thought/knowledge & breath (one should know what to take in how much quantity , the technique,etc.) It is a learning process n i hope i learn as much as i can. Recommended 2 all 2 be a part of the Art Of Living class.

Focus !!!!!!!!

Focus a word which has different meaning. Focus is something which everyone should have in life. But how & on what?? That's the question which we all have to find out. Well, it is not easy to have focus on one thing but if you have focus on one thing then stick to it. But again sticking to one thing is again a human choice. But as we are humans we want to keep exploring & take up many other things besides one. Now in school & college while choosing a subject or a career we need to focus on one thing. But with so many choices how do we focus on one thing. It creates a confusion. But even if we choose one (which is not easy) & stick to it & if we don't get the job required as a fresher in that field /area then we are said to be open in other areas. Then why are we asked to FOCUS on one thing?? Does it not create further confusion & havoc in one's life. First you say focus on one thing despite so many choices then stick to it & then we are asked to take up other things also. There is so much of confusion in your life & the person suggesting it must be more confused / unsure of what he or she is saying. What should be the solution to such a CONFUSION??????

Life a Joke !!!!!!!!

Joke is something that makes one laugh & may b sometimes u don't like it n say it's a PJ. But life is such a joke that has too many emotions. It makes one laugh, cry, sad, happy, good, bad, etc. It depends on the individual how he/she takes this joke. I am saying that it gives happiness with more tears which is what i think as i have this thinking that , that's what life has given till now & further also there might be more tears. I know that i have made my mind to think this way & actually life will not necessary do this. But mind has its own reasoning which differs from the one that the heart does. May be also the situations / circumstances that occur in life makes me think this way. But i also know that tears dont give any solution but makes one weak which when displayed in front of people can either make u a joke or make u gain sympathy & make people think ' poor girl/boy ' & make u feel more weak in front of others & also make u feel inferior in front of people (which i dont like) , but still tears do come which makes u feel better & also makes u feel that u r not worthy of anything. I don't know what to do. Need someone to guide me & make me strong.